But that's not what I'm here to talk about. My Fibromyalgia pain went largely untreated for a long time because I didn't have a diagnosis. I just had pain. A lot of it. All over the place. Most mornings I woke up feeling like I'd gone toe to toe with Milan Lucic. My entire body felt bruised. I get sharp pins and needles pain in my hands and feet and some days, frankly, they just don't quite work right. The only relief for that particular pain is to wrap my hands in hot wash cloths. I also have a few spots on my body (my hips, the top 6" or so of my spine, my collarbones) that hurt if you even look at them the wrong way and, forget about it if you have a 3 year old hanging off your back. I have more bad days than good. My arthritis doctor suggested a muscle relaxer for a better sleep pattern (which is a little ridiculous considering my sleep patterns are interrupted by anxiety and nightmares, not pain) and that I continue my yoga. Which I do, to the best of my ability. Then he referred me back to my GP for treatment. My GP and I spend a lot of time together between my two kids, my breathing issues, my migraines and of course all that girl trouble I used to have before I had fahkin' leftie removed. He knows I walked around with a broken elbow for 3 days once and I'm no light-weight about pain. He referred me to the pain clinic back at the end of August. They can't see me until January. Let me repeat that. They can't see me until January. The medication I take for anxiety is one of the medications prescribed to control Fibromyalgia so I can't get on something like Cymbalta too. So my doctor prescribes Tramadol to treat the worst of the pain. Now, let me be clear. Tramadol is prescribed for long-term, chronic pain because it is a non-narcotic. It's considered low-risk for addiction and it doesn't make any muthafuckah I know loopy, woozy or "high" by any stretch of anyone's imagination.
So what I'm saying is this: Yes, prescription drug abuse is an epidemic and a legitimate problem. But I bet most of you never even stop to think about who else it's a gigantic fahking problem for...people like Carrie and myself who live daily in constant pain...people who take their medication (in my case it's a fahking non-narcotic) responsibly and only to control their pain. So thanks assholes, I know Carrie and I salute you in your choices to abuse medication that people with real problems need just to have a normal life. The two of us deserve it and because of shitheads like you, it's becoming increasingly harder just to get through the days without pain.