Been dealing with too much lately. Have too many kids, work too much, just don't seem to have time to breathe let along write on here. But I'm still here, and I am extremely thankful that I'm still included, that I didn't get deleted, because I feel the need to share. I wrote this to my boss. Well ex-boss now. I still haven't decided if I should give it to her or not. Not entirely sure if I wrote it just because I needed to say these things, or because I wanted to make sure she knew. But right now, I just felt like I needed to share. So here it is. I don't want to promise, but I will try to fill in the details of how this happened. If I don't I'm sorry. And again, I apologize for being MIA for so long, just know I haven't missed a post, and hope you all know you are all in my thoughts!
Joanna,
I’m
sorry I haven’t spoken to you until now. I haven’t wanted to say anything to
you until I could do so with a calm head. Unfortunately, that took almost a
month, because my heart takes a long time to heal, and you ripped my heart into
more pieces than could heal in just a few days, or weeks apparently.
I
completely understand that you are running a business. I understand that you
have to do, and say, whatever it takes to make that business successful. But
what you need to understand is that the people who are there running that
business, the ones who deal with all the bullshit, the ones who do the actual
dirty work, the people who are making YOU money, ARE ACTUALLY PEOPLE!! They are
human beings, with problems outside of that hotel. They have feelings,
families, and BILLS that have to be taken care of as well! What you need to
realize, is that when you have someone there who puts EVERYTHING they have into
YOUR business, you need to appreciate that. You need to STOP for a minute,
THINK for minute, and REALIZE for a minute, that maybe, just MAYBE, the things
you do, and the things you say, and the way you treat them, might result in
ways more than what is going to immediately affect you.
Stop
for just a minute and think about something Joanna. Did I EVER ask you for a
raise? Did I EVER ask you for a bonus? NO. I DID ask you when you were going to
send me for training. Why? Because I wanted to learn how to make your business
better. I craved the skills I needed to do MORE for YOUR hotel. I believed you
when you said you saw me in YOUR chair. I believed you when you told me that
you would train me to do the audits, and when you told me I would be in the
office. I BELIEVED YOU!!!! The problem I have is, when you asked me about
something, you NEVER believed me. You didn’t believe me about not stealing
donuts. You didn’t believe me when the WD-40 came up missing. You didn’t
believe me when I told you I would have NEVER let Morgen clock me in an hour
and half earlier than I actually got there. But the main thing Joanna, is you
didn’t believe me when I told you that I didn’t steal $153.24 from you. I have
the reports, I made copies Joanna. I know exactly how much money I made you
since I’ve been there. I know how many rooms I sold for more than you charged. I
know how many suites I sold. I know how many Wyndham Rewards memberships I
signed up. I also know that I didn’t profit at all from any of that. YOU DID!
And again, I NEVER asked for a dime from all of that profit. Yet you for some
reason believed that I would risk my job, risk my chance of running YOUR hotel,
risk MY LIVELIHOOD for $153.24. I don’t think you realize Joanna how much I LOVE
that hotel. I LOVED the guests. I LOVED all the things you let me take charge
of. I LOVED how well I did all the things that you never even asked me to do. I
LOVED being able to come up with ideas that you hadn’t thought of. I LOVED
acquiring business that you wouldn’t have had if I had not taken the
initiative. I LOVED ALL OF IT!!! I even loved you. I loved that you gave me the
freedom to accomplish things that I never realized I was capable of, but you
let me try. I realized I was good at things that I had never had the
opportunity to experience until I was there. You gave me that freedom. That
opportunity. Yet it all came with so much a higher price than I could have ever
imagined. I NEVER lied to you Joanna. I NEVER STOLE from you. In fact if I ever
even got the slightest idea that someone working for you was taking advantage,
or not doing at least the minimum they should be, I ALWAYS let you know. I told
you over and over how much it upset me that other employees didn’t take pride
in their job, or in the hotel. I wasn’t paid to do that Joanna. I just did it,
because I loved it, because I wanted to, and because I didn’t see the point in
working somewhere if I didn’t take pride in what I was doing.
Like I
said before, I understand that this is a business for you. I understand that
your past has made you how you are. I understand that you have had lots and
lots of employees, and you probably don’t remember over half of their names.
But THIS employee remembers you. THIS EMPLOYEE remembers coming in, working
when NOBODY else could. Making more money than any other employee did, because
any other employee didn’t give a shit. THIS EMPLOYEE got her heart shattered
because she believed that her employer BELIEVED in her. BUT THIS EMPLOYEE WAS
WRONG. Because even though you told me how much your heart ached for everyone
on this planet, you proved by your actions that those were just words. You
proved that you would rather believe bullshit rumors from ex-employees who were
jealous of the fact that she would never live up to the dedication and hard
work, and figured spreading rumors and lies would get her farther in life. She
was right apparently. But I guarantee you she will never be dedicated to you or
that hotel like I was.
I love
Microtel. I love you, and I love Arthur just as much as any other family I
have. Which is why I’m as hurt as I am. I would have stayed there making slave wages
for what I did, forever. All you had to do was trust me. All you had to do was
keep letting me know that you appreciated how hard I worked for YOU! Because
that’s who I did it for. I sure as FUCK didn’t work that hard because of how
well you paid me. I don’t care who told you what. At this point it really
doesn’t matter to me. I am not on drugs Joanna. The fact that you have seen me
shed tears over how drugs destroyed my family just makes that accusation so
much worse. But that’s water under the bridge. I worked my ASS off, because I
was dedicated to you and that place. Anyone who tells you different, is only
trying to make me look bad because they know they will never COMPARE to me. But
good luck finding someone who does, especially for what you are willing to pay.
Thank
you for being a part of my life, and of the growth I experienced while I was
with you. Thank you for letting me realize what exactly it is that I’m worth.
But most of all, thank you for opening my eyes. I realize now just how NAÏVE I am.
However, I never fail without learning a valuable lesson, and I have learned
from you, that no matter how nice, or sweet someone is, more than likely, when
it comes to business, YOU CANT TRUST ANYONE.
And I’m
just adding this for my own personal gain. I’ve had several interviews these
past few weeks. Every single one of them has asked me what my beginning salary
was, and my ending salary was. They also ask me what my duties were at my last
job. It’s really embarrassing when their eyes bulge out at my salary after
telling them all the things I did for you. Nobody believes that I did what I
did for such SHIT wages. NOBODY. This has happened 6 times now since I left
you. 6 times I’ve had people interviewing me gasp at what you paid me. Again, I
just thought you should know.
Best
Regards,
Jen
I raised the revenue almost $50,000 in less than a year. I had zero hotel experience when I started. MY DROP got stolen. My drop of $153.24. A week after it happened, since her cameras have never worked, she decided to tell everyone who works there, that she was positive I had stolen it because she thinks I have a drug problem. She erased my name off of the schedule, and didn't even have the balls to tell me. I heard it from a co-worker. She has absolutely NO proof of either accusation. She even caught the person I am 99% positive stole the money, stealing from her AGAIN 2 days later. Who had $100 missing from his drawer 2 days prior! Yet a scorned ex-employee put an idea in her head, and she ran with it. I do think I need to give her this letter. If for no other reason but closure for myself. I don't however have any expectation that she will have even an ounce of guilt for what she's done. She has already denied that she said what she did, even though I heard it from several employees before I actually let myself believe she had actually said it. I feel like I've been cheated on, or betrayed in the worst possible way. Not only did she betray every trust I had in her, she has destroyed any chance I have of using the experience I gained, and the accomplishments I made while working here, because she has refused to say anything decent about me to any future employer that has contacted her since I've been gone. The worst part is, not even a week before this incident happened, she gave me a raise, she hugged me, and said she doesn't know how she could possibly run this place without me. She can't even figure out how she did it before I got there. Yet, after the incident, she took my raise back. Said she couldn't afford the whole quarter she gave me since she has to replace the stolen money.
Thank you for listening. I just really needed to get this off my chest. Again I apologize for my absence, and promise to try and make my presence known a little more often!! Much much love to all the sisters!!!
