Been going to see my therapist Judy for a little while now and I've noticed some things.
1 - I used to think I was always right and didn't care what anyone else thought, I'd plow over them without even thinking twice and get my way.
2 - I have to stop thinking things are going to go how I want it to, not everything works out how you want it to.
3 - When I feel dejected and down, I always put the people around me down so I can feel superior to make up for the let down.
4 - I will no longer take anything or anyone for granted. Because they could be gone in half a heartbeat.
This is just a few things, I am sure there are more but at this time it's all I got.
Things with Kevin and I are going well. I have found I have done a few of these things to him and will catch myself seconds afterwards. He is very understanding because he did research online about bi-polar for me, A.D.D. for Eric and Autism for Sebastian. Hopefully it will help him understand what happens on a daily basis. I am shocked he didn't run for the hills after realizing he's got 3 different mental disorders with my family.
We seem to be growing closer every time we are together, I'm working on trust with him.. scares the shit out of me though.